Idk, just ask Covid.

Back then when I was saying that "2019 is just so hard for me", i never thought 2020 is far more screwed up. I've been doing work from home for 15 days until today. It's not that i want to complaining, but yes i am going to complain here. Tho i'm still luckier than half of population that can't get a wfh privilege, i still feel this is bad. It isn't about how bored i am and can't even go out, but is 2020 even a year?? Not just globally, but also personally, was my 2019 isn't worse enough? C'mon.

Life isn't getting better now, it's me that getting used to all the bad things and disappointment. You know what's good with getting used to the bad things? You never have an expectation that something good will happen to you.

Sometimes i take that as a jokes on me. 

The only thing that separates yourself and happiness is the thought that everyone else is happier. Mother fact is, they're just as clueless as you about their life either. And not, they're probably aren't happy for themselves either. I quote one of the Baz Luhrmann's quotable words here, "Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself”.

And another Baz Luhrmann's words, because it deserves to be quote a million times - a friendly reminder:

"The most interesting people I know, didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know, still don’t. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone. Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, and maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s. Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own. Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it, but in your own living room. Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them. Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents; you never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.”

But the last line is only applied when YOUR SIBLINGS SIMPLY BEING NICE TO YOU TOO. Lololol.

This is a closing statement; let's see if this year will be going any worse than this or not. Never hope for the better. I can't live with such optimism. Stay safe everyone, wash your hands with water and soap because hand sanitizer is a gross. Don't die.