Almost is never enough

I owe myself a million apologies.

Because i did her so badly that she hurts so much after all this time.

I treat her worst than ever when I fall in love with someone else, other than myself.

I did not give her so much respect she deserves.

I did not embrace her, nurture her and most of the time, i did not realize this until I broke her.

I broke her many times that she fall apart.

I am sorry.

I'm sorry that i love someone else so much and let them bring us down.

I'm sorry  that i trust someone else and let them break their promises just like that.

I'm sorry that i give people power to hurt us, by being in love with them.

I'm sorry that people are not choosing us back, and leave us behind.

I'm sorry that people always say that we're strong enough, eventho we're not. Not anymore.

I wish i could turn back the time to save you, to save us.

I almost love myself.

But still, almost is never enough.