It's over or not yet

Day 53 of quarantine.

I started to think that we're staying home is not because of corona, but just because we're home already without particular reason. There's nothing in between anyway.  I can tell that I'm starting to enjoy this new routine, doing everything from home and not meeting people. I feel like we're appreciate each other more than we used to before. We really ask our friends, "Are you okay? Are you & family in a good health? Safe and sound and all?". And we do care about them, that's not just a cheap talk. 

But if you ask me what i really wanna do when this over, that would be a "home massage". You see? One thing i wanna do after this over is also staying at home, doing my massage LOL. Of course i also want to travel somewhere but i don't have an urge to travel, so.... And oh! Staying at home makes me wanna do one thing that i haven't done for a while, i want to attend music concert. Really want to singing as loud as i can, jumping to the beat, until i broke my leg and my voice went off. I don't know why, but i think that's the only fun i want to do after this.

But have you ever think, what if this is not over? What if this is the end? We could never meeting each other again, we're not coming to office anymore. It's over for all of us. Have you ever think that way or it's just me? Well, for me, if that's the case i might not regret anything. People that have a plan might be the one who regrets it, people who have something to do but they're not doing it yet might also regret it. They wish they could have done it before but they just realize it when they have no more time. 

Me? I don't have plan. No more. 2020 has been so cruel for me, so i don't want to plan anything for now and think that the rest of this year should take responsibility to accomplish that. No one can do that actually. Let's just hope that we still have time and pray that this is not the end, so we still have a lot of time to do what we need to do & fix what we need to fix.

You're not gonna die anytime soon.